society is too good.
it is normal to desire fame, sex, money, and power.i have eaten enough candy to upset my stomach.
i have played with enough toys to be haunted by boredom.
i have abused enough porn to feel hopeless and disgusted.
i have chased enough comfort to self-sabotage opportunities.
i have broken enough hearts to know that mine is broken.the candy was sweet, while it lasted.
the toys were fun, while they lasted.
the porn was arousing, while i lasted.
the comfort was relaxing, while it lasted.
the love was ethereal, while it lasted.in great efforts to satisfy my desires and get what i want,
i have reached outside of myself enough to know
when i grasp something that is not me.the candy, toys, porn, comfort, and self-tainted love affairs
were all feeding my fire of desire.desire is a fire that gets hungrier when it eats.wanting what i want kills me,
shatters me into fragments of myself,
in a spiritual suicide over time.if i can not want what i want...at least i can do what i want.at least i can be.desiring to do what i want, desiring to be, has saved me.
being reminds me that imperfect does not mean incomplete.i now recognize myself as the human being i was born as.
i was never born as a human wanting.in an era of great deception and selfishness,
amidst a regime run by people who are endlessly hungry for
more fame, more sex, more money, and more power...honest and free art does not sound bad to me.this website is a safe space for art to be for free.you will never see ads on this website.
you will never see prices on this website.so, if you're a fellow artist,
and you would like a safe space
for your art to be free,
you should reach out to me."too good to be true."
imagine something that is "too good."
i can give you the truth, right now, easily:
giving is best when one does not expect a return.this is how i be.peace, zavier rafael - i write, burn mics, and help people fly.